I know it isn't the right timing now. I understand :))

Addictions

I LOVE OREO!

I know, its sudden. but actually its not.

I actually loved oreo since quite young.

ITS SOOO NICEEEE!

Yup, Addicted! :P

And i will really really wanna eat this and make it my self next time!!!!

Thank you for reading :))

Ryan.

Happy DAGF!

Hahahaha, DAGF

means: Death Anniversary Good Friday!

hahah so, DAGF to my dearest mother :))

Today i didn't go to school. so i woke up quite late and went to see mom.

After that went to tution.

That Mr.chia [biology teacher] didn't fail to make me laugh like mad again!

well, after that i went for basketball with my friends till around 10 or 11 plus.

I had loads of fun :DD

Anyways, Good friday everybody!! :))

randoms :P

I drew all that on my physics paper during my physics class XD

Poor me

I lost my sejarah nota!!

Good thing my teacher said can photostat don't need salin semua.

But it is a freaking loads of work to stick and paste 62 papers into a nota!

I don't wanna do the whole thing again! HELP D:

And i still got loads of homework D:

Haih!!!!!!!!!!!! FUCK HOMEWORK! XD [even though its good for me :P]

Updated mixpod on your right ;))

Gablah gablah gablah!

[Ignore the caption]

I guess waiting doesn't hurt.

But somehow deep i still feel the pain. hmm.

Nevermind then.

To you know who you are.

I do hope you quickly don't be stressed!

otherwise i'll be love sick larhhhh!

lol. Alrighty.

Thanks for reading :))

Addictions

Addiction no.1 would be this facebook game. i haven't been playing it for a long long time until recently! i was affected by miss yap and now i am playing it and addicted to it! YIKESS! XD

OMIGOSHH!! hahaha i also found out that the drama Dream high has Ost [theme songs] that ROCKS like madddd! they are sooo nice. Addiction no.2 :P

I wonder when will it end.

Ending Holidays

Well Well Well!
Its ending alright!
I am not ready!! My homeworks are still untouched and i'm doing it now!
Hahahaaha, anyways yesterday (saturday) Jack and i were talking on 4th floor and decided to catch a movie!
So we walked there and found out all 8 plus movies are FULL!
So we bought a 10.15 pm show "Rango"!
We ate stone grill at 7~8 pm
And tell you something! Jack was as stupid as me! He went to touch the stone too!!
Hahaha laugh till mad!
At 8 we went to cyber near jusco,
We played and played and totally forgot about the time!
So at 10.15 we ran like mad to jusco and went in! hahah!
After that went back to jack's house to sleep.
This morning okay lur, Soso only cause didn't get to see somebody!
Hahaha, that's how my holiday ended! :'(
Now still rushing for homework! wahaha!


Thanks for reading, love
Ryan :))

This was how i felt :))

Lee DeWyze-Dear Isabelle Lyrics

I found this faded picture
of you and me on Lake Michigan
You were smiling,
the wind was blowing in your hair
I think it’s been around 5 years
and everything and nothing’s changed
God, I wish that you were here

I know I should’ve called
I know I should’ve stayed
I should’ve said a lot of things
I hope it’s not too late

Dear Isabelle
Been thinking about you
Dear Isabelle
So lonely without you
I pretended I was doing well
But without you it’s been hell
Dear Isabelle

Oooh oooh oooh

Sometimes I’m not good with words
But you knew that so I wrote this verse
In hopes that it would
someday reach your ears
And I still wonder where you are
But it doesn’t matter cause it’s still too far
The lake has never looked so clear

I know I should’ve called
I know I should’ve stayed
I should’ve said a lot of things
I hope it’s not too late

Dear Isabelle
Been thinking about you
Dear Isabelle
So lonely without you
I pretended I was doing well
But without you it’s been hell
Dear Isabelle

It’s hard for me to write this
Is it hard for you to know that I still care
Would it kill you to forgive me
Come on, Isabelle
I know that you’re out there

I know I should’ve called
I know I should’ve stayed
I should’ve said a lot of things
I hope it’s not too late

Dear Isabelle
Been thinking about you
Dear Isabelle
So lonely without you
I pretended I was doing well
But without you it’s been hell
Dear Isabelle

This is a song for you

Is what i am doing now, what i have done really worth it?

Why

Why must it end this way?
Why must it always end this way huh?
I don't get it.
I don't know who to believe anymore,
I know i can believe in God
But that doen's help anything.
I feel so restless without her
Yet i feel so scared when i am with her.
I guess we will never be together even if i fantasize about it.
Heart broken once again not by her but by myself.

New new and NEW

My new specs


Old specs

New specs

Now now, that's my new specs and hairstyle alright :DD

My old specs is really worned out and my hair is too long for school

So, yup that's why i look like that now.

I am also doing this to try to start a new.

Focus on God for the end days are coming.

Thanks for reaing :))

Love, Ryan

Once again, Played

I was stupid enough to believe you have changed.
Now i am going to put my focus on God, Studies, Music plus friens and family.
I don't know if you would change
I am not saying i would wait for you too
I'll just see how god leads.
I am not going to say how i notice everything
But i can say i am dissapointed.
But i can't do anything too.
haih, anything wathever.


Thanks for reading, Love
Ryan

"Your Love Means More to me"

I dont have the chance to post a video to you tube cause i dont have the video.
But i still hope you guys like it :))

Verse:
For the days that you saved me
For those times that you helped me
In the time of sadness
and In the time of joy

Pre-chorus:
I praise you Lord
I worship you
I wanna do everything for you
I wanna do everything for you (x2)

Chorus:
Your love means more to me
And i praise you for as long as i live
For as long as I breathe
I will do everything i can
To worship you
To dance for you
To sing to you

Bridge:
All who tries to stop me
Will end up on the ground
God will help me through
I wanna do everything i can
I wanna do everything i can

[Repeat chorus one more time]

End:
Shu-bi-du-bi-bab-doo-bab-doo-bab (x2)

CBC camp

Well well well!!!

It has been a great 4 days for me!

Had a lot of fun and new experience!

Loved the kids in my group,

Loved the song writing experience,

and Loved the Games!

It was nice :))

I teamed up with Zi xiang for the song writing!

And came up with a song called

"Your Love Means More To Me"!

Woohoo we had such great time!

And the games, even though it was tiring but it was still fun!

Had loads of fun with all of you guys!

Thanks :)) God bless You guys!

Thanks for reading, Love

Ryan

4/3/11!!

HAHAHA, it was a crazy day that day!
well, its just yesterday.
It has been so long since we four kings had last when out this late!
Sung, Xiang, me and Huat went out yesterday after exams and tution about 8 plus to city square.
We went for a movie "I am number four!"
We bought the tickets and went to the arcade.
Nic knew the way to the arcade and huat xiang and me didn't.
Nic went his own way and the three of us left thought we were going the right way but were lost!! XD
After that we still found our way and we played the drum that was so hard Nic was like cutting vegetables and frying eggs when he was playing!! Hahaha so funny.
After that we went in early to the movie.
There was nobody so we were like shouting here and there!
During the show, we were very noisy too! XD
one part when the hero kissed the girl, Xiang said, Later his mouth breathe out fire ah!
Everybody laughed! hahaha
After that we went out to wait for nic's father to come and when his father came he said not enough space to sit and we wanted to find a bus but there was no bus back to plaza pelangi!!
In the end, we went up and down the overhead bridge 4 times!!! OMG
I was so tired when i reached my grandma house i slept right away on the bed withouht bathing!
hahaha
But it was real fun, enjoyed it real much. Thanks brothers! :))


Thanks for reading,Loves
Ryan

Love

Love,
well this simple word is not as simple as it looks.
But i have also learnt a lot from this word too.
And for a long time i have been afraid of loving back at someone,
But now? ahaha i am not afraid anymore.
If there is love, a opportunity I will try my best to get it!
Dont let this go away,
So what if i dont know what will happen in the future.
If all of us thinks that way there will be no love at all.
So everybody wish me good luck! :))
I will not be a scardy person that is scared of consequences anymore :D

Exams

Well well its time for exams again i hope to learn from my mistakes again by

STUDYING!! LoL anyways,

it has been quite some time since i last posted something.

I was busy playing games XD

It has been quite good for me,

Same old routine everyday and some new experiences i guess.

I pray i get good results XD

And oh ya! i bought a new gatsby wax clay!

Its real nice to use but a little bit too hard. haha

Okay then, now i have nothing to write about already.

Thanks for reading :))

Loves, Ryan.

Think

Sometimes in life,

We just have to stop everything for a minute,

And think about every single thing.

We often trouble over a lot stuff and over thinking or even acting before thinking.

Things like love life, homework, life, parents, money, etc.

People in church will always tell us to pray and forget to tell us to calm down and get things straight by thinking the correct way or logical way.

Life is actually exam preparing us for the way up, heaven..

To all my dearest friends and family,

I hope we can all get a grip and climb up this very steep hill.

We just have to do things little by little like what my brother yong xiang said,

"sikit sikit jadi bukit" :))

Thanks for reading.

Traffic jam!





The old but classic car XD

I personally love this one!

Fun but Tired

It was the running day!

Morning i went for the run, i was very early and no one was there when i reached :S
I thought no one else is coming, but they did after a while.
So, before the run we had some stretching! hahah quite fun~
But i dont get it cause the 16 to 18 boys are running first which should be 13 to 14 girls start first!
otherwise it will be so unmotivating :((
Anyways the thing started and we ran, kim huat and a few of my friends are so damn fast ==
I was okay but i stopped and walked for a lot of times too, in the end i got number 24 which still can get extra marks even though no medals :'((
And that was over after a very long and boring medal giving ceremony cause there is no one else in my rumah that came. Sad right? lol


After that, i went back home and rested bath played some com games and went to church.
Nothing to say about that.
The plan was, i am supposse to go to sarah's house and wait for my dad to come fetch me cause he's working.
But, aunt hwee kiew invited them to go her house to eat and i was afraid to interupt.
But i still went anyways. lol == thicked skin right?

I went to the steamboat dinner and guess what?! Uncle bond and family were there too!
I was quite suprised and happy cause my dad used to be quite good with uncle bond.
We ate a lot, I ate a lot! there is a table that has fried stuff and the other soup stuff.
It was fun to get together.
We had the lao yu sheng also! ^^
In the middle of our meal there was a very loud *POP* bursting sound!
It was fireworks from a house a few blocks away from aunt hwee kiew's house.
The fireworks was very loud :S Its not those small fireworks, its those big ones!!
So it was so loud that you can hardly hear a thing!
After all those excitements and photos we continue eating and chatting~
After meal,samuel, qian wen and I myself played toys XD
Hey, dont look down on me and say i'm childish!
Its fun! we played bowling using orange and toy cars with road tracks!
I use to have a box of road tracks from hot wheels last time, but it was burnt into ashes apparently :'((
Anyways, like i was saying, it wasa lots of fun! we built lots of different tracks and we played and played :S
But we still had to leave due to lateness and service for tomorrow,
So we bid goodbye with a long face and went home :))



I reached home about 12 plus am and watched tv till now,
I am going sleep :))





Good night

[p.s=i will be uploading some pics of the toys and tracks later in the next post :)) stay tuned!]

Wierd

That's wierd, my mixpod player at the sidebar is not playing anything! :S
I need help! Dont know hot to fix it,
I wonder can you guys hear it or not.

Haha i didn't go to school again XD
well, its not the first time right? heheh
but i feel lousy :'( not going school again,
help me God :'(

Narsha - I'm In Love [HD DL]

This is the song i was talking about! :) enjoy!

I'm back!

Well well its coming to 4 am,

I am still deeply engrossed in my feelings and this new song i heard recently,

"I'm in love" by narsha a korean song,

The guitar is played by the super talented guitar player in korea! i forgot his name :S

and the singer has a super sexy and sweet sound! Gahh!

Its lovely the song, i meant, i am loving it!

I am also missing my mother and that person like i am missing a part of my body,

I somehow just wonder why am i still here and why must i be such a failure,

its hard to want something so bad but cant get it its just like oxygen is just around us everywhere but we cant see it or touch it,

i just really want to achieve some very simple things in live and i cant even do that,

oh god, help me.

thanks for reading :))